I'm lost. I'm lost. I'm lost. 
In places I once knew.
I walk. I walk. I walk.

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But I don't make it through.
I wait. I wait. I wait. 
For something new to start. 
But day after day after day.
I'm staring at my heart.

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Another morning same old skies and empty feeling passing by.

I keep busy just to hide what follows me inside. 

People say I look all right like I got everything inside. 

But they don't see me

every night when the silence hits.

 I still remember how it felt before everything just fell. 

Back when every word you said sounded like forever.

Now I hear your name around and my thoughts all spiral down.

Funny how you're not here now but you're everywhere. 

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I'm lost. I'm lost. I'm lost.
In places I once knew. 
I walk. I walk. I walk.
But I don't make it through.

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I wait. I wait. I wait. 
For something new to start. 
But day after day after day.
I'm staring at my heart. 

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I stay longer than I should in conversations  crowded rooms trying not to think of you. 

Trying not to notice. 

I tell jokes

and play my part like nothing's breaking in the dark 

but every smile falls apart when nobody's looking. 

I keep saying time will heal. Maybe one day you will feel real. 

Right now all I really feel is distance growing.

I don't scream,  I don't complain. I just all the way like the train that lost its brakes.

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Still rolling, lost,
I'm lost, I'm lost
in places I once knew. 
I walk, I walk, I walk, but I don't make it through.
I wait, I wait, I wait, for something new to start. 
Day after day after, day it's tearing at my heart.

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Every picture, every song makes me think I'm moving on and reminds me I was wrong. 

For a second, I change cities in my mind, change routines a thousand times, still somehow I always find the same ending.

 Too awake to call it a night, too exhausted for a fight, running circles in my mind with old memories. 

Maybe that's just how it goes, maybe healing happens slow, maybe letting go just grows like a quiet thing.

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I'm lost, I'm lost, I'm lost in places I once knew.
I WALK, I WALK, I walk, but I don't make it through. 
I wait, I wait, I wait for something new to start.
Day after day after day it's tearing at my heart.

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I used to chase a better life, now I'm trying to survive, trying just to get tonight without overthinking.

I wear strength like it's a mask, every answer sounds rehearsed, tapping this feels out of reach, but I keep reaching.

Sometimes I sit and pray alone, not for miracles to come, just enough light to keep going.

One more morning, I got scars I never show, stories nobody will know, but I'm learning how to grow through the damage.

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I'm lost.I'm lost. I'm lost.
In places I once knew. 
I WALK. I WALK. I WALK, BUT I DON'T MAKE it through.
I wait. I wait. I wait for something new to start.
Day after day after day  I'm staring at my heart.

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Maybe someday I'll look back and this won't feel quite as bad. Like a chapter that I had to get through.

Maybe all these sleepless nights  lead me somewhere worth the fight.

Maybe pain is just a guide. I can't see it. Till

that day I'll keep moving even when I don't believe it. One more step is still a step in the right direction. 

I don't need the perfect end. I just need the strength to get to keep breathing through the wind and keep going.

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Yeah. Still searching.
Still moving. 
Day after day after day I'm still here.
I'm still here.

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